well...it's done!

I just told my boss I'm leaving. THANK GOD it's over, I feel like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders.

This morning I literally stared a the email I had written asking her if I could meet with her sometime today. My palms were sweating and I had to force myself to press "send." Then came the hardest part...waiting for her reply. 10 minutes felt like 10 hours, no lie.

Finally she told me she had time before 10 or after 3 today and asked if I wanted to just meet right now, and I figured, why put it off all day?

Since we all have cubicles we went into one of the conference rooms and she asked me what was going on, and I told her "I'm leaving." She said "I knew it," which kind of took me by surprise but then she said 'I always assume that when someone says they need to meet with me privately."

Anyways, from there I just told her the situation and she was really nice about it. She said she was excited for me and that she thought I would be a good teacher. We talked for a little bit about teaching, going back to school etc... and she was fine with my last day being May 19th. I gave her the letter I had written and she told me how it will work with vacation days.

So really I didn't have anything to be anxious about because it really was fine! Now I have 2.5 weeks to get everything in order here and I'll be good to go.

it's the final countdown

Have you notice I am just a little obsessed with this whole quitting-my-job-conversation-with- my-boss thing?

Well in case you haven't, let me further illustrate my obsession...

I have my "official" resignation letter all printed out and signed. And hidden in my desk. Because we know the cleaning people might see it tonight and spill the beans before I can.

I have a draft of an email to my boss asking if I can meet with her at some point saved and ready to be sent as soon as I get in tomorrow. Because one sentence emails take so long to type.

Here is the problem. I have no idea what I am going to say once I get in the room with my boss. And I think blurting out "I QUIT" is considered unprofessional.

So yea, we shall see how it goes. I promise this is my last post about this...well except for when I tell you how it goes tomorrow! How could I leave you having after all this build up? It would be like blogging blue balls.

Any last words of advice?

2010 goals---April update

Seriously is April is almost over? What? Where does the time go? The time has come for another update on my goals for this year. To see the original post and my previous updates click here.

1) Lose 20 pounds by the end of the year.

I'm still doing Weight Watchers and as of my last weigh in I have lost about 10 pounds. I say about because I was up a bit last week! It's slow going but as long as the general trend is downward that is good with me. As far as exercising I have been slacking on that and need to pick it up again. It's just hard to be motivated at the end of the day.

2) Take more pictures.

Let's be honest, I suck at this. But I am going to have some free time this summer and want to use it to get my pictures more organized. I also have a lot of events in the next few months so maybe that will motivate me more to take pictures?

3) Get accepted to a Masters in Teaching program. CHECK!

As you know, I am starting at LU in June and will be very busy with grad school classes and also taking some undergrad requirements at a local community college. I'll be posting more about all that soon! Now that I definitely know where I am going/getting started I'll be modifying this for next month's update but I'm not exactly sure how I will phrase it yet!

I really want to thank all of you for the support you have given me about going back to school. Not to be sappy, but I honestly don't know what I would do without this blogging community! I may not have tons of readers but those of you who do read and comment truly feel like real friends. So there is my sap for the day. Puffy hearts to all of you.

holding pattern

holding pattern: a state of waiting or suspended activity or progress

Or my life this week.

Friday I am going to tell my boss about me leaving, but until then I have to pretend there is nothing going on...and I feel bad about it. Especially today when I had my monthly "one-on-one" meeting with her to discuss my future, performance and goals and I had to somewhat (well maybe even more than somewhat) lie. I really considered just coming clean and telling her today. Which would mean risking her (or more likely her boss) forcing me leave earlier then I want and me missing out on some extra money. Which would suck. I didn't do that.

Blah.

I'm anxious about this quiting thing. Don't get me wrong, I'm super excited to actually do it. It's the conversation that makes me anxious.

Some people at work do know and I was wondering if my boss had any ideas...but after our meeting today I really think I am going to be completely taking her by surprise. The goody-goody in me has issues with that.

On another note...I know this blog has been a little ehhh lately. Blame it on the holding pattern.

rainy monday fantasy

While getting ready for work this morning I had a very involved (non-sexual) fantasy...

When it is rainy on Mondays everything should shut down. No work. No traffic. No bad drivers who can't handle rain. Just relaxation.

I could sleep in as long as I want to and would wake up and magically find warm breakfast from Chick-fil-A waiting for me in the kitchen. The morning would be spent catching up on my dvr and blog reading (I'm very behind I know, sorry!) Then I would whip up some different homemade soups, eat some and freeze the rest. Take a nap. Watch a movie. Read a book.

Sigh.

That would be nice.

fortunately/unfortunately

Fortunately it's Friday! And I am leaving work at 1:00 today!
Unfortunately Friday is also my Weight Watchers weigh in day and this morning I was up 1.8 pounds...grrr.

Fortunately I am giving my notice at work in just one week...next Friday.
Unfortunately the thought of having the "I'm quitting" conversation with my boss really scares me!

Fortunately I'm still loving the look of my new bangs.
Unfortunately I haven't quite mastered styling them (and flattening the cowlicks that always stopped me from having bangs) so sometimes they look a bit wonky (today for example.) And they could already use a trim.

Fortunately Hanna and I are going to be spending the weekend at my friend, B's house. Her bf is going to be away and K needs to study so it will be a fun girls weekend!
Unfortunately wait...there is nothing unfortunate about that!

happy earth day!

In honor of the Earth I wanted to share with you one of my favorite eco-friendly products...reusable bags from Mixed Bag Designs

My sister knows the owner of this company which is how I found out about them and now I am obsessed. Not only are they super cute, they are also durable and very roomy. I have the grocery store bags and they hold so much food! Plus every time I use them I get tons of compliments in the checkout line.

They are also pretty cheap...the grocery store bags are around $12.00 and they also have lots of other sizes and styles.

By the way...I didn't get paid or anything to do this! I just love these bags!

{all photos from Mixed Bag Designs}