ch-ch-ch-changes Part 2

(side note...To read part one click here. If you don't have any interest in my long winded life story please skip these posts. It's a lot of information but I feel like I have to share the whole story if I am going to share anything.)


The Choice

In early 2009 things with my job got very frustrating. The department was going through a lot of changes and there were no opportunities to move anywhere in the company. People started getting fired and laid off. My optimism was fading fast and I was burned out.

To be honest, this was the first time I really started to think about a life long career. Which is sort of sad since I had spent 4 years in college and almost 2 years in Corperate America at this point. I always hoped to be able to stop working and stay home with my kids eventually and sort of planned on that. Now, I realize I have no idea where I will be financially when I have kids so I shouldn't assume something that might not be possible.

I came back to the idea of being a teacher. I missed working with kids and the opportunity to be creative. Being a teacher would also give me a more conducive schedule whenever I did have children of my own. And most importantly, a chance to work at a job that I felt passionate about and would make me want to go to work (most of the time...there is no job where you want to go everyday.)

The thing holding me back was...of course...money. I would have to borrow money to go back to school no matter if I went full time or part time and with K borrowing money for law school I was scared to take on even more.

So, I abandoned the idea and continued to try and be optimistic and look for new jobs within my current company. I also started this blog as a way to get out my creativity.

In the early summer I came back to the idea and had a long conversation with K about it over several margaritas. I told him it was something I really wanted and he said he thought I would be really good at it, however finaces came into the discussion again. He thought maybe I should wait until he was done with law school, which I didn't want to do. Mainly because I thought I would loose momentum and at that point probably be focused on other things. So yet again, I abandonded the idea.

Or did I? I took some time to research the process as well as schools in the area and then told my family and K in the begining of August that I wanted to go for it. I thought about it while at the beach and told myself if after a week of thinking I still wanted to do it I should move forward. I am fourtante that compared to a lot of people I don't have a ton of undergrad loans and I would rather have to struggle for a year and pay back money in the future for a chance to actually be happy in my career.


Everyone I have told so far as been very supportive (except for maybe my dad but he is warming up to the idea) but I still havn't told a lot of people.



(Part 3 will come soon)